Aspiring Lyric Poet Cleans Out Her Refrigerator In The Aftermath Of Irene

September 22, 2011

A flashlight shone on the caves of Lascaux or Altamira
could not have disclosed a richer chronicle
in Paleolithic polychrome

Daubs of olive and oxblood and ochre –
Do these represent bison? Irish elk?
Hardened syrup spills and frosting smears -
Equine stampedes?
Sauce leakage blooming fungus –
The rare long homed rhinoceros?
To wipe these walls of their history
with baking soda and vinegar would be desecration

No less than an epic natural disaster
could have compelled her to unseal these stale
inner chambers — to spelunk
and comb this archaeologist’s boon
(in fact — a hurricane
or more specifically — its power outage consequence
of several days accrued)

An ancient civilization’s fossilized artifacts
on outer shelves — two identical jars of molasses
one with an inch remaining — one with an inch missing
more enigmatic since black strap
as a baking ingredient was heretofore unknown

Three jars of hoisin sauce
each of distinctly different provenance
the contents uniformly two thirds sacrificed
to some burnt offering –
each container one third festering with mold
and lovingly hoarded for hungry ghosts
or for a future opportunity
to time travel to a past where the contents
of all three can be combined and
restored to freshness
– and by the same Orwellian sci-fi logic –
the collection of remnant condiment fragments
lurking in their oils and brines — sun dried tomatoes
calamatas — roasted peppers — artichoke hearts –
Oh — Ozymandias of hors d’oeuvres
stretched far away across the linoleum!

In the freezer door a few loose wrapped sweets
remain from the ritual where initiate shamans
dressed in hideous costumes — rattling gourd bowls
to frighten the spirits of All Hallows
and demand morsels of tribute
(the poet’s health conscious strategy
to buy the ones she finds repulsive)
and yes — here they remain — tootsie rolls
too stale to hand out again this year
yet not sufficiently decomposed to jettison

Behind the sour wafting boggy cartons
of melted ice cream
a tiny robins egg blue treasure box half despoiled
of four artisinally handcrafted chocolate truffles
in tribute to the matrimonial ritual
of her offspring and his spouse
whose child is fast approaching
his second year milestone

Behind this — a tool encrusted in murky sludge
a disturbingly gleaming
and hollow syringe
revealed in memory merely
as the henna applicator preserved
from another ritual – this time to decorate
with mehndi the fruitful belly
of her daughter’s pending second birth
also two seasons of moons in the past

And resembling limp gray
decomposing slugs
a thawing half banana
in each of five ziplock bags
always one more piece remaining
than visiting grandchildren can gnaw –
though never fresh enough for the next visit
nor memorable enough to add to a smoothie

Then back to the lower chamber –
the shelf of liquids
sediments long since distilled into particulate matter –
the enigma of milk without nipples
the soy milk un-organic — the rice milk flavorless
the cashew nut milk unpalatable –the almond milk unsuitable
or unfashionable — yet all essential
when entertaining the quixotic demands
of the visiting vegan progeny

But here — far beyond the marvel
of ancient Hittite honey conserved
in wax sealed clay jars –
her eternal staples hum
with the obdurate memory echo of the refrigerator motor –
Sri Racha Rooster Hot Sauce
Chivers Ginger Preserve — Aged Parmigiano Reggiano
generic crunchy peanut butter — Kikoman Lite Soy Sauce
inspired by these she hopes to endure
for seven days — seven years –
seven times seven millennia
at least in verse

La Fumee d’Amber Gris *

August 11, 2011

toward her downcast face in reverie
dawn fog white
smoke unfurls upward
sea foam white
gathered beneath an ample shawl
quartz stone white
tented above receiving arms
fresh cream white
stretched between her fingertips
moonbeam white
caressing memories
bleached bone white
the canvas
cadmium white
her deep sleeved garment
dove down white
the column behind her
marble white
the veil into which is concealed
the red passion of her lower lip
raw pearl white
the incense that perfumes
her clothes pervades her recollection
thin shroud white
from silver censer highlights gleam
titanium white
her loss a blankness
moth wing white
the wall facing the foot of the bed
old paint white
the space this painting hung
slant shadow white
framed between two windows
sun bleached white
the room burdened with intention
purest white
where viewer melds with subject
silk web white
summer haze white
into winter squall white
then cracked ice white
and back again white
cycle of foreboding white
the penetration of scent white
the permanence of longing white
white requiem sung in rising smoke
full blazing blinding hot cold yearning white

(from the painting by John Singer Sargent)

The B Side

August 11, 2011

She doesn’t claim
the airwaves
no viral refrain

infects your brain
but restlessness flips
the rock over

curiosity seeks
the shy creature
persistence woos

eye contact
her melody
has no obvious hook

but soon you’re
snagged in the undercurrent
tangled in

her hair
a private siren tune
submerged

thumping bass
in the grooves
beneath

The Four Horsepersons Revisit Amherst

June 27, 2011

Because I would not stop for Death
I met him at Starbucks for a latte.
My plan – much madness in divinest sense
was to approach him halfway -
let him decide I wasn’t worth the effort.
He’d ditched the scythe – sports an ear bud now

but he was distracted from the whole reaping gig.
Famine was texting him
about a new line of celebrity cookware
she was flogging on the home shopping network -
the truth must dazzle gradually.

Alas, in every take of the demo
she was deemed unappetizing
just too “zero on the bone”
her publicist cum personal trainer scolded.

Then Pestilence breezed in
with her new squeeze, Fallout.
the latter, a shady friend for torrid days
was rumored to be making a comeback.
She had just got fed up with War and his
zealotry and territorial jealous rages -
she was looking for someone
with more staying power I guess.

Though War, spinning his own campaign blog
in the corner, is coming along nicely -
it may be dreary to be somebody
and inscrutable to be nobody
but it is absolutely crucial to be
“an army of one” -
“a cavalry of woe with
her rusty ammunition”
just doesn’t reach his target demographic anymore.

And I hear Pestilence herself
is expanding her influence
with European sprouts and gene mod. salmon
and a TB and dengue fever resurgence.
She still dabbles in animal vectors
and though the avian flu petered out
she is determined that
hope is the thing with feathers.

But – the soul selects her own society
so I slowly back away from these jokers -
Imps in eager caucus who raffle for my soul -
though in withdrawing I barked my shin
and pressed my palm to the scrape
lest anybody spy the blood    

(with a little help from Emily Dickinson)

Revelant Unravellment

June 19, 2011

Two women agreed
(as the train huffed through Darien)
they could not retire
“I need … ”
she said
“ … to feel relevant”
“Oh yes …”
her counterpart chimed
“ … the same for me -
the schedules, the board meetings”
“Need” I thought, not “Want”
“Feel” I noted, not “Be”

Then more agreement
about stylists – brittle tufts
of brightly saturated
preternaturally even color
broadcasting discomfiture
with graying
in an attempt to conceal same

Driveway chalk drawing
my grandson on my lap
he just this side of two
in the pre-memory stage
of now
me just the other side of sixty

he chases my pastel squiggles
with ebullient embellishments -
as soon erased by rain
as his memory
of this unplanned insignificant
perfectly satisfying day

a day as ephemeral
as the wind wobbled orbs
streaming from the bubble wand
he chases and bursts midair

I think “want” and I think “be”
and revealing irreverence
I welcome irrelevance

undelete

June 16, 2011

so this woman is in the hospital
pretty dinged up
a car slammed right through
the pharmacy concrete block wall
punched a hole
she was innocently bystanding
on the other side of -
no conclusive report
about the driver
drunk or stoned
or heart attack
or texting
or fed up waiting in line
for his prescriptions

but of what we can all be assured
because the victim enlightens us
in the interview
is that god was watching out for her
never mind that
god might have spared her suffering completely
in any of his infinitely creative ways
by any of his omnipotent means -
delayed her in highway construction
or had the voices tell her to go to wallgreens
instead of cvs

but the point is he had his eyes
on the flight of this one sparrow
or maybe was just looking the other way
in japan recently
or north carolina yesterday
or in new orleans a few years back
or in haiti
or when the oil spill in the gulf went on and on
or maybe they were net total unbelievers

she asserts god stopped the car just short of
smearing her down the shampoo aisle
because he is partial to her
or perhaps to jojoba coconut infusion cream rinse
but consider
he could have previously smote her with perfectly balanced ph
and she would have been
nowhere near the hair care products

And she stands not alone in witness
among the blessed -
the father whose nine children were spared
when the bomb exploded on the left bank
asserts that god spared his family
due to his righteousness
while the slacker father
across the alley
somehow transgressed
just enough to justify
to this extremely conscientious
bean-counter of retribution
to trounce his entire family
by aligning them all
precisely within the bull’s eye
of the bomb’s trajectory

And when I pray
it is to be delivered from basking
for all eternity within the radiance
of a supreme entity contrived
to justify cruelty in the guise moral superiority
to explain all random sorrow
to self-congratulate all dumb luck
of our existence

god: 1

the unworthy: 0

woman who goes to church with manageable hair: 1

innocent bystanders: 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0


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