Mother As Metaphor

April 22, 2017

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Our Mother is the Mother of all Bombs
She is as orange as radioactive Tang
She swaddles us in overpressure
and she rubs our gums with napalm

Mother of all Bomb’s bedtime stories
are banshee nightmares
and her lullaby a whistling dissonant descent

She suckled no one because
“you miserable shits” weren’t going to ruin
her perfect conical tit

She packs famine in our lunch box
and venom in our thermos
She shows up at our school pageant
drunk on power

Mother of All Bombs pits us against each other
whispering into each of our ears
that she loves our destructive power best
while hating us all unconditionally

She makes us play with shrapnel
because it was good enough for her at our age

Mother of all Bombs locks us in the basement
with no supporting joists

She curses that when we grow up she hopes
we’ll have children as ungrateful
as we were to her

Mother of all Bombs
is obsessed with clean surfaces
abhors a vacuum unless she wields it
in her own image
of last resort

Mother of all Bomb’s awol boyfriend
last surfaced on Russian surveillance tapes
She opens her legs wide for all high-roller
Generals and Tyrants

And when we run away from home
we pray Mother doesn’t find
where we took shelter

Lucia

April 22, 2017

Beneath a self-crowned torus of silver braids
behind thick bifocals
my mother’s mother, Lucia,
imparted her aproned counsel:
“you’re growing up now,
and pretty soon those boys
are going to notice you, and maybe
some boy is going to ask you to go with him….”

“Sure, you can go along for awhile
and then tell him you are thinking about
a nice pair of gold earrings,
and pretty soon he gives you the earrings
and then, maybe you’re not so interested in him
any more and bye and bye another boy comes along.
So you go with him and make eyes
and you want a pearl necklace …. “

This strategy wended itself up to gold watch
but meanwhile, I’d have amassed
a pirate’s chest of jewelry and possibly
several pubescent broken hearts.
Even in budding cluelessness
I had the immediate conviction
“This isn’t cool”!

Lucia’s ten sons and daughters –
competed with each other to redo her bathroom
or update an air conditioning unit
swayed by one of her oft wielded aphorisms:
“The sun shines on the one closest to it”
They compared highlights of her strategies –
fondly evoking Machiavelli’s name.

Born in the Blizzard of 1888 in New Haven
to Italian immigrant parents
who had never seen snow
Lucia mentioned little of her childhood
beside a house “accidentally” burned down
when her father’s travel documents
were not forthcoming
and the immigrant child’s dilemma –
with a lesson attached.
“I went to school through the sixth grade
then my mother needed us girls to work.
We used to be the only Italian girls at the time –
they would call us Guineas and Dagos and I would say
‘Don’t you call me that you dirty stinkers!’
But we were kids. We didn’t know.
We didn’t know the the Irish were slaves under England –
We didn’t know that Rome dominated England for 400 years.
I love all people. The Irish, The Swedes, The Germans, The Polacks,
The Black people are still God Almighty’s children and still nice.
When I put my children to bed I sang to them and rocked them
and made them pray for all children.”

She was married off at 14 to a boarder in their house
15 years older and recently off the boat
who nevertheless seemed to have (as she told it)
his own gold watch hustle –
Pasquale’s watch had “gone missing” and if her parents
didn’t want any trouble
they could give their blessing.
“I was so little when he took me”
she raised an indignant whiskered chin:
“I had to stand on a flipped over bucket
to just reach the sink … and
he was so jealous his eyes wouldn’t leave me –
I wouldn’t argue with him
but as soon as he was gone I’d raise hell,
dancing and singing and doing cartwheels in the fields”

Every 22 months another baby came
and of the 13, five girls and five boys survived.
She’d take the wheelbarrow uphill – carting
whichever children were too small for school
to the church for 25 pounds of corn meal
and 25 pounds of flour:
“They wouldn’t give you one without the other –
and I wasn’t ashamed with a bunch of children here –
It was the depression.”
Returning downhill the children rode on top of the sacks.

“I’d get the used feed bags
bleach them just as white as snow in two washtubs –
there was no such thing in those days as washing machines –
and sew nightgowns, pajamas, pillowcases, diapers …
Later we got goats, chickens, pigs, two milk cows.”
She wore her husband’s old boots going after the cows or else
“the snakes would twist around the bushes
and jump right out at you!”

Lucia canned milk and vegetables, slaughtered pigs
and stuffed sausage casings, crushed grapes,
was on call for an occasional midwifing sideline,
nursed a demented mother-in-law,
and brought eggs and chickens and wine to sick neighbors –
while telling her husband the chickens
ate their own eggs and were then run over in the lane –
and the wine jug had sprung a leak.
Her stories were riddled with spousal legerdemain:
“ He was stingy. You had to be one step ahead of him.”
In her Robin Hood logic:
“The right hand doesn’t see what
the left hand is doing”
“I was Robbing Peter to pay Paul’”

After 40 years of marriage,
her husband’s jealousy had not waned.
One of his friends informed him
that Lucia had been making eyes at Ottavio,
a widower, at the altar society meeting.
Lucia responded “If that man is telling the truth
may I be dead by Easter!” But if he is lying … “
The witness bearer was indeed dead by Easter,
as was her husband,
and she married Ottavio the next year.

“He had been a widower for ten years. I never looked at him,
I thought he was kind of sly.”
Her friends teased their tarantella bob-and-weave courtship –
He always seemed to turn up at all the church hall societies.
“He kept it up and kept it up.
One day I was so mad I went down on my knees and said
‘Dear Gawd Almighty, take me! I cant stand it any longer!
Take me!’

Cranking the macaroni machine in which she fed her dough,
I heard many stories about the treachery of daughters-in-law,
(with whom she always magnanimously reconciled)
the various Italian Catholic societies she heroically
commandeered for fundraising banquet suppers –
1,800 meatballs a personal record.
After pasta was spread on clean bed sheets to dry
we packed it in shirt boxes for each of her ten children’s families.
She was still driving when we distributed the pasta
to my aunts and uncles –
we’d say the rosary while she drove
often with her cronies – the Kennedy sisters – riding shotgun.
But the rosary was talismanic – she welcomed in all proselytizers
at her door and quoted them verse for verse.
“I have Billy Graham’s Bible, I have the Jehovah Bible
I have the Catholic Bible, I have the Baha’i Bible –
they’re all the same – there is one Gawd Almighty.
And I believe in doing good in this world but if you can’t
or if somebody doesn’t know better – you have to forgive them.”

Forgive she did – I recall ‘Tavio and Lucia
in cataract induced scrutinizing collaboration
inches from the T.V. screen,
heatedly debating One Life to Live character intrigue
He with disgusted moral outrage – “Puttan!”
She with indulgent philosophical shrugs.
In the wake of another soap opera scandal,
passionate Calabrese dialect and gesture continued
while he stacked her Italian celebration cookies
with stiff slow patience
into huge exquisitely precise geometric domes
while, in clouds of sifted flour, she supervised her granddaughters
who mixed, rolled, baked, iced and embellished
for another family wedding.

 

Many of Grandma Lucia’s quotes were taken verbatim from an interview transcript
by the Ethnic Heritage Project in New Britain CT, on December 17, 1974 when she was 86 years old. Many of these quotes sounded quite familiar to me from stories she recounted to me and my cousins. The first quote she said directly to me, as I recall it.

(Third) Civil Defense All Purpose Survival Cracker Poem

January 13, 2017

DSCN9381My memory
or what’s left of it
helps to hustle ten-gallon gold metallic tins
uncovered in a midnight romp
from my dorm sub-basement
for various friends supplementing
their food service rations
and defying the unlikely efficacy
of anything labelled
civil defense all purpose survival crackers
to survive the scenario
of an all out nuclear war with the Soviets
back then in 1969

My childhood
or what was left of it, in 1962
mimed the wimpled so called
Sister of Mercy
in the duck and cover one-act instruction
repeated by school children
beneath desks all across our great land
during the Cuban Missile Crisis
Had I been able to nibble even one
soul annihilatingly tasteless survival cracker
at that time
I would surely not have bothered
rehearsing to prolong the agony
Our civil defense program
or what’s left of it
seems no longer concerned
with civic distribution of tinned foodstuffs
long past consumption expiration
in this brave new world
nor the military aggression of our former enemy
(different name for the same state on steroids)
nor the fallout from their political manipulation
of our voting process –
wrong kind of fallout I guess

Our democratic process
or what’s left of it, voted
to build walls
to ship back “their tired and their poor”
to relabel doors on bathrooms
to make everywhere a shooting range
and anything that moves
target practice for the NRA
to raise workers taxes
(while the rich stay “smart”)
to gut workers health access
to let the environment
(or what’s left of it)
be raped wholesale
by the same rich white male club
who think rape itself another
reality show entertainment

My hope
or what’s left of it
is to round up these guys
and make them survive
in an underground bunker
on these expired crackers
or Soylent Green
whichever we can still find
on Ebay
after our republic
or what’s left of it
survives the next four years

Wet Talk

December 15, 2016

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Wet Talk

Let’s talk about water
Sometimes a trickle –
a thin pinprick drip of water
If you are thirsty – not enough
If you are a farmer – empty silos
If that guy who controls the dam
promises you it will trickle down
make another plan

Let’s talk about water
Sometimes – ice
Sometimes – polar ice caps
When the temperature soars – ice melts
Sometimes this is called a conspiracy and a hoax
but lets call it chemistry and physics
Coal is carbon – when it burns
carbon dioxide – a heat ceiling
(picture a glass ceiling only forever)
Goodbye Florida, goodbye Sri Lanka
goodbye Cape Cod, goodbye Samoa

Let’s talk about water
Ninety-two per cent of human blood is water
This is true whether you live on this side
of the wall or the other
Whether you spill someone’s casually
or donate your own in vials
Used metaphorically – it is nonsense
Blood itself neither entitles nor excludes
We all bleed the same stuff

Let’s talk about tears –
water with the sting of salt
In bedrooms and battlefields
In jail cells and hospitals
and high schools and playgrounds
when the bully goes unchecked
tears flow – mixed with blood

Let’s talk about water
with enough wind and havoc
drops in the updraft
make balls of ice
then hail lays waste
as in hail to the chief
then shelter in place

One more thing about water
rivulets feed the brook
brooks feed the stream
streams feed the river
rivers join hands with purpose
to reach the sea
movement is the strength of water
mni wiconi
water is life

As David Crumbles

December 15, 2016

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As David Crumbles

all statues melt
incrementally
faster if wicks
are embedded
and ignited

on the observation deck
the cavorting gollum
clam digger
drools mud

the flesh-bound
conductor sags
atonally

the english pug and the french poodle
slobber unrequited
beneath their masks

the arms slough first
the mink pom-pom drawer nobs
sluff off and the furniture venus
continues to ooze

the fourteen year old snob
inside her brittle dusty tutu
seeps plasteline in fifth position

undersized general wolfe
arm once pointed harbor-ward
kidnapped by pranksters
shipped around the world
demoted to pub figurehead
finally fully restored to be
menaced by molotov cocktail

the chocolate moose preserved
at precisely seventy degrees
fahrenheit
until the power failure

3-D printer dribbles plastic
layer by precise coagulating layer
notwithstanding the heat
of a next cosmic, climactic, or civic event

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The Sectional

December 15, 2016

 

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The Sectional

first pass
sectional abandoned
to bulk trash
all permutations of family
assemblage
rendered obsolete
three decades after Vonnegut predicted
Everybody will sit around all day
punching the keys of computer terminals
connected to everything there is

second pass
sectional stonehenged
encroached breakdown lane
stacked top to bottom to sideways
with keystone footstool
architects and designers take note:
stack celibate beehive cells
no workers – all drones

third pass
sectional deconstructed
scavenged for throw pillows
lounge chair units jammed in full splay
crevices ransacked for loose change
defunct remote device exhumed
I blame Bell – Marconi – Edison
I blame Zuckerberg – Jobs – Cooper
Mostly – damned to the future past
I blame Roddenberry’s vision
of universal communicators

fourth pass
sectional reimagined
repurposed as barricade
repurposed as obstacle course
repurposed as Claes Oldenburg sandwich
repurposed as wireless portal launch
to personal wormhole
no face time in space time
sectional
mourned